Yo I'm BACK!!!!

To God be the Glory

It's been so long since I've been on here. I definitely miss it. Y'all have missed so much! I'm not going to try to sum it all up on paper. If you want to know what has gone down since June then you gotta ask me.

Recently (within the last 3 months) God and I have experienced a disconnect. I feel as if I'm not hearing anything He says. I receive no direction anymore. I know exactly why, too. In the past 3 months I can count on one hand how many times I've opened my Bible outside of church, and honestly, probably have fingers left over. That's completely embarrassing!! How dare I not read my road map for life. It's no wonder that I've lost my way. And let me tell you, having a disconnect is completely terrible!!! I wake up everyday and ignore my conscious. It tells me to read God's Words, and what do I do? I simply turn back over and sleep the extra time. What a lazy good-for-nothing sinner!!! I hate living in the ditch. It's not a rut. I feel like I can't climb out.

Parts of my life have just seemed to struggle. For instance, I'm in the ATEP at DSU. I absolutely love it!!! Athletic Training is not a job or even a career. It's a lifestyle. One has to be prepared to become an Athletic Trainer, not choose that for a job. BIG DIFFERENCE! I'm struggling in program. Not doing as well as I want to with proficiencies and competencies. I know the material; I just seem to have brain farts when the time comes. Now I'm still doing fine, just not performing to my hopes. But not to worry I'm gonna do better. Also, my physical fitness has gone way down. I haven't ran in 3 weeks or worked out in longer than that. I haven't had much time, and the time I have, I waste in laziness. I believe that people need a spiritual workout everyday but also a physical one. Nealy and I are running in a race Saturday after Thanksgiving. Also, Nealy and I have experienced a disconnect. We've been dating for longer than a year. It's been truly an amazing experience. And if you didn't know already, I want to marry her!! But the time is not now. With our schedules, we don't get a whole lot of time together. Our schedules seem to conflict. This has put a strain on our relationship. Also, we haven't spent the time with God that He deserves. This is most definitely the biggest problem. We are currently fixing this. Relationships must be made up of two SOLID people FIRST. Then, they can be a solid couple together. No need to worry all you people we are not breaking up, taking a break, or any of that. We are just spending more time with Christ. That's the solution, DUH!!!

I've applied to EMT school for next semester at MDCC. It's a 30min drive on TUES and THURS nights. I pray that God wants this for me now. I know he wants it for me, but the question is when. I feel that time is now. It is a full fledged LEAP of faith, not step.

Well I've gotta go write a love letter to my girlfriend, and then off to bed. Pray for me.

To God be the Glory